21/06/17

Who Am I?

Ok I am doing it. My first post in english. 
Please, be patient with me since this is the first time I am trying to do something like this.  Writing a post on a blog is far from doing it on Facebook or instagram but I think that it's time to do it. O_O Definitely.

I want to introduce myself for all those who know me from Instagram or web but they don't really know who I am or what I do, since I used to write all my stuff in italian.

I am Sabrina, but my friends call me Sabu.
I use Sabu as a nickname since my japanese pen-friends called me Saburina when I was 16, so I still use it since I can't pronunce "R" and Sabu doesn't need any R :)

I am based in Milan, city where I was born in the far away 1987 and where I spend most of my life. 
I like describing myself as a creative visionary misunderstood girl.
At age of 13 I told my mom I wanted to be "unusual".
In italian we translate it as "alternative" but I think that in english it might be better translate it as unconventional - unusual or offbeat .
By the way, I kept the promise. I did it.

After almost 14 years later, I can say I grew up as an unusual person. 
What "Alternative" real means I don't know. What I know is that it has been bit hard for me to find my place in this world especially during high school, but even after wasn't so easy.
You know, sometimes it is just difficult to let people understand us especially if we wear different and think different.
Think different is literally the worst thing ever happened to me but also the best one.
I thank God and my parents everyday for being so different.
People always look at you with diffidence, they ask you several times billion stupid requests.
"Why do you wear like this?" - "Why do you need to be different" - "Why you wear black?"
This happened when I used to be a "Goth" (better defined as a Tim Burton creature) during high school. But nothing has changed once I started to wear colors.
Too much coloured, too much accessoried, too much extreme, too much eccentric.
Yes, as you are too much boring. Mh?

I am not that kind of creative person born after "trends" or fashion icons.
There are a lot of fakes in this world and unfortunately people tend to admire them instead of thinking with their head, and once you try to create something different or innovative, if people don't have their icon to follow they don't trust in our potentiality.

I think I have a good look but i am not a fashionista.
I am creative but not that kind of creative which includes perfection.
I am far away from perfection. I love order but i am really messy in my art.
I love cleaning, but I don't mind if I dirt my hands.
My job title says I am a Senior Designer but after all I am just a visionary misunderstood :) as per said before.

I started to work as an illustrator after my graduation at IED in Milan, where I graduated in illustration specialised in children's books.
After six months, thanks God, I started my first internship by an italian company called Nortons where I learnt to draw kids clothing. I started with graphics for the collections and I finished my internship that I knew how to do more or less all that I needed to continue with my legs. Unfortunately it wasn't the best time to assume people and I had to leave. Not bad, I finished at the end of September and I joined in Sanrio (better known for Hello Kitty and Sanrio Characters) at the end of October. It was 2010.

2011 has been such incredible and everything has changed. My life, my points of view, my hope, the way I used to think. E V E R Y T H I N G.
It is true that we have to live the moment, because today we are here but tomorrow, maybe, we won't be here again.
I faced with an important surgery, i got an ostomy and my body changed drammatically. 
I lost 20kg in few months, I lost my hair, I knew anorexya and we've been friends for a while.
In 2013 I came back to my life but the life I knew before the surgery was completely different because I WAS different.
My mind was different, my body was, my hair, even my friends.
So, it was born Sabu 2.0 for the second time :)


My passions are :

  • Coloring my life, literally. It doesn't matter if on walls at home, on my clothing or on nails
  • Illustrate 
  • Dirt my hands with glue, acrylics, and whatever I use to give a new life to something old or paper creations.
  • Travel especially to warm Countries 
  • Learn arabic and islamic culture
  • Think postive
  • Sea side and relax <3
  • Take care of myself
  • Dislike haters and all that people who always try to bring you down.
Maybe next post I can start to talk about my Hijabi project since in Italy it doesn't really make sense. Not for me. But my idea is to create a new opportunity in an arabic country where I can apply my idea of fashion and muslim taste in the right place!
Maybe even UK might be good...better than Italy for sure.